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#147

2011-11-07T21:12:00.003+08:00

*takes a butter knife and clinks it on the wine glass*

*coughs* I have an announcement to make. As of today, Mochachocolicious is retiring from being its unfortunate source of ranting from its sole owner. Mochachocolicious will now live its retirement in peace and serenity, without the tremendous torture it has been through for half a decade caused by its ridiculous owner's mood swings and needs to rant at most times, and sometimes (if lucky) soothes with motivation inspired by god-knows-what to its owner, and a handful of times sharing pictures and great memories of its owner.

This unfortunate new site will now take over my job, going through its torturous years of serving my psychotic owner (ex-owner in the next few seconds) (hope she doesn't hear this, or I'll be so dead after this) in being a source of communicating her anger, despair and once in awhile, happy days of her life.

All I got to say is, GOOD LUCK xoxojilly.blospot.com in all your future undertakings.

I AM FINALLY FREEEEEE!

#146

2011-11-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

My semester break is over in another couple of days. Remind me again how fast time flies. This is my first semester break spent in KL. Proud to say, it is quite a productive break, not in an academic way however, like how it's supposed to be. I should be working on my final year project which is due in about 7 weeks time. But then again, who am I kidding! This is JILLY SONG u'r talking about. THE JILLY SONG who does best in procrastination.

So what have I been doing for the past 1 and a half week? Sleeping and partying, u must say eyy? This time, I can proudly deny it out loud! Judging from my nature, it's pretty hard to believe eyy? Especially sleeping all day and doing nothing part. I know, I know. I surprise myself too.

I've spent my previous week busy with this 'business' talk thingymajiggy, which I'm not pretty sure how it will work out as yet. And the whole of this week, I have signed up for fitness classes for the next 3 months. And also catching up with some long lost friends, as well as going for a shoot for a corporate short clip.

Everyday for the past half week has been spent on my fitness classes. What fitness classes, u must ask. I've been doing Capoeira and Yoga and doing it everyday for the past half week has really killed my legs and muscles. U know, from my non-fitness conscious mindset, it is a pretty different course of nature. It is fun, and pretty interesting and I'm loving it, minus the fact that my calf and thigh muscles are hurting like mad now. How did I miss this out all these while? I've yet to go for my Muay Thai, Krav Maaga, Mix Martial Arts, Urban Warrior, Systema and Steps classes. Well, we all know what I'll be doing for the next 3 months before heading home for CNY.

Be ready to see a new side of me soon. A fit, toned up Jilly Song is coming to u soon. BWAHAHAHAHA! No, seriously. I'm so serious, I'm not even kidding. Well, maybe a little.

What? U think I can't do this?

Pffttt! U suck!

#145

2011-11-01T23:10:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, 31st October 2011, marks my very last day of being a Hitz Cruiser! *pops open a Champagne bottle*
After 9 months of being a Mix FM Roadrunner, and then another 9 months as a Hitz Cruiser, I finally resigned from my job!
I was planning to quit by the end of the year, but due to circumstances, I quit a month earlier than I planned.

This is definitely a job that I will miss.
A job with all the media perks (although we get the crappiest, lowest media treatment standard), I have definitely learnt a lot from it and lots of experiences dealing with different kind of people every single day, and working in a team.
But I cannot deny that towards the past few months, things weren't going that well with the takeover of a new person to lead us.
Things were doing hell downhill and all over the place.
Which makes me really happy at this moment, to be out of that situation to deal with all that crap.

But what I miss most will be the people at work.
The people whom I meet almost every single day for the past 1 and a half year, and spent most of my time with. And all the people in the office whom I will go up to annoy.

ADIOS HITZ! ADIOS AMP!

#144

2011-10-24T22:10:00.003+08:00

Once again, I'm reminded how much people don't appreciate u.
Growing up has taught me a lot about whom to trust and whom not to.
Who appreciates u, and who don't.
One thing for sure I learnt is not to pour in your heart and soul into anything at all, be it your relationship or your job and career.
Coz if it doesn't turn out expectantly, u'll get crushed to your very last piece.

I know this sounds very un-encouraging, but this is the truth.
Nobody ever said the truth doesn't hurt.

Practically, life is not like the movies.

I only have certain people in my life whom I trust.
My mom, my sister, and a couple of my bestest friends I ever knew. U guys know who u are :)
Other than that, it's really hard for me to gain trusts on anybody else.
Not because I have issues, but coz I've been proven right over and over again.
Don't be fooled by all the nice looking people out there.
Especially those whom u work with.
Lots of double headed snakes out there.

Only certain people are trustable and dependable.
Open your eyes real wide and see clearly for yourself.
Don't get hurt by all these fucktards.
They're not worth the heartbreak, like I said, be it work or relationships.

#143

2011-10-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

here's so much going through my head.
I was very looking forward to finishing up my studies.
But now that I'm so close to it, having one more paper to sit for for this term, and another 7 weeks for the next term, I would be finishing up this degree of mine, if everything goes well of course.
But now that I'm that much closer to it, I'm kinda scared to know what I'm going to be doing next year.

One thing for sure that's bothering me is, where do I go from here?

And suddenly at this moment, graduating is the very last thing I want to achieve for now.
Suddenly coming to the end, I want to be a student, albeit how much I hated studies before this.
Weird, but true.
I don't enjoy having to go to classes, doing homework (not like it bothers me coz I never did any homework since my Diploma days) and handing in assignments and burning midnight oil for exams.
But despite how much I hate being a student, I suddenly want to remain being a student.
Call me weird, coz I find myself weird too.

I have so many different plans popping into my head every single day.
One day, I wanna be working and travelling in Aussie before I start a full-time job,
Another day, I want to work in Singapore.
Another day, I want to work and travel in the States for the summer program.
Another day, I find myself looking at Uni's to continue my Masters.
Another day, I just want to go back home and settle at home for a bit.
Days pass by, and with each passing days, my motives change like how seasons change.
Or more like, how the hours of the day change.

Bottom line is, I don't want to face the future.
I'm pretty comfortable with what I have now.
Sad to say, but I'm so dwelt in my comfort zone that I'm so afraid to step out of it.

Dwelling won't get me anywhere.
It's only fair that I sit down and list down all my options, and weigh all the consequences.
It is sad to say that, I'm growing up.
Responsibilities are slowly stacking up.

Truth is we don't know much.
We don't know where the future can bring us.
It gets judgmental from the start.

#142

2011-10-18T12:22:00.005+08:00

I have always missed out looking at a bigger picture.
I have always overlooked my way over the the whole picture.
But what I always see is fragments of it, the little parts and pieces.

See, I've never been the kinda person who is grateful enough with what I have.
I think that happens too much with us humans.
Humans are never satisfied, and that's the truth no one can ever denied.
Well, unless u wanna try, I dare u to!

I've came to realize that I've never been grateful when good things happen, but only grieves when ugly things happen.
Sure these couple of years haven't been really good to me, but what I failed to see is how these bad years actually made me a stronger person that I ever am.
How all these bad things had made me more independent than I can ever be, and how much I've grown up ever since.

Well this year, it hasn't been an exception for its ups and downs.
I've got my equal shares of joys, heartbreaking moments, and tough days.
What I have failed to do all these while is open up my eyes, and putting the pieces together.
What I failed to do is see the whole share as a bigger image.

And now that I've realized it, I've finally managed to join the pieces together.
Over the past 10 months of this year, I've had good times, and also bad days.
I've had my share of love, and my share of heartbreaks.
I've had days where I've achieved, and days where I failed.
But over the past 10 months, I've realized that everything happened for a reason.
And with every bad thing that happened, there is something else that is arranged to overcome the sorrow.

I've been grateful that the companionship I was given, was there to overcome the loneliness I've been facing.
The new friends I met, are there to compensate the ones that I lost.
And the courage I had built up, is there to sweep away the weaknesses that I had.

I can't believe that through this 22 years of my life, I've failed to see this big, broad image that highlights everything so clearly.
But now that I've broaden my sight and my view, I'm grateful for everything the big Man up there has arranged for me.

I've finally seen the whole picture, now it's your turn to do so.
U will find that life is pretty damn interesting!

#141

2011-10-17T14:31:00.045+08:00

5 Things I Cannot Live Without

These past 5 years, ever since I stepped foot in KL for studies, my lifestyle changed drastically from how it used to back in the ever so sweet home in Kuching.
Back then, these are the things I can survive without, but now, if u take them away from me, I think I will go nuts!
Yeah lifestyle back there and here is pretty distant.
I used to be able to survive only on TV. But I guess not having a TV or more particularly, a cabled TV here pretty much makes u dependent on other sources of technology.

And being dependent on these technologies aren't such a good thing.
Dependency is never a good thing, in any ways I can think of.

My dependency list starts with my laptop. The main source of 90% of the 5 things I cannot live without!

I cannot understand how I can survive without the internet these days.

My ever so reliable earphones that helps me drown out the surroundings and just soothes me into whatever I'm listening to, or watching.

YouTube! Before, I never quite understand how people can watch YouTube all day long, but stumbling onto some super awesome channels keeps me hogging on to YouTube whenever I'm on the internet. I guess YouTube pretty much replaced my cable TV needs.

And last but not least, my ever so important cell phone! The first thing that really accompanied my when I came over here. The only gadget I can depend on to get me through the boredom.

But then, all the gadgets I'm dependent on right now are slowly dying on me. Is it sad or what? All coming to the end of it's life all at almost the same time :(

So, are there any sponsors for these replacements?

Anyone at all?

Well, I guess not.

I shall start skipping all my meals, save up every penny in my pocket, and probably beg, or rob the bank.

#140

2011-10-16T12:40:00.001+08:00

The past 2.5 months passed by like lightning strikes, and I'm not kidding.
It felt like I just picked the darling up from KL Central and the companionship began.
Leaving the house everyday and coming back home to see each other everyday.
It definitely felt different having someone around me all the time (I'm too used to being alone).
But it wasn't something that I couldn't get used to.
Surprisingly, it was something I adapt to very quickly and comfortably.
U see, I'm not the kinda person who adapts to living with someone else that easily.
I remembered having a friend over for a night at my place, had already put me in this super uneasy feeling.
Or the one few times where I had ridiculous attitude housemates, where I could not continue staying with such bunch of brats.
But this time, I coped with it the second the darling got here.
And I am quite proud for that change in my acceptance.

Yesterday marks the last day of companionship with the darling.
And today, actually right now, she's on her flight to Christchurch with her mom.
A week and a half later, she'll be back in the apartment for a day before flying off back to Kuching and then to Melbourne.
Dropping her off the the Central yesterday gave me a heavy heart.
"2.5 months is already over, REALLY?" was what was going through my head, coz it sure hell didn't feel like it has been that long.
I guess I've been too caught up with so much work that I didn't even feel time passing.
And looking back, we've went to quite a number of places together, but we could have gone to more and did more stuff, but work was kinda holding me back.
And when work wasn't holding me back, I'm just too lazy to leave my comfy bed that I wasn't spending enough time with.
Now looking back, I felt bad for wanting to stay home so much and not bring the darling around as much as I could have.

But anyways, what I wanted to say was, I'm still not getting used to the scene of being all alone.
For the past 2.5 months, I have been going to classes the most in my past 2 years of my degree course (although I still skipped quite a number of classes overall), all thanks to the darling.

If u'r reading this babe, I hope you're having fun in NZ! Not like u'll be reading this in NZ coz your laptop is here with me. So if u'r reading this when u'r back, I hope NZ treated u well.
I'll be praying so that there is non-existence of aftershock in Christchurch during your stay there.
Be safe and take good care. And most of all, HAVE FUN!
Waiting to see pics from your trip!
And I'll most probably see u next year in Melbourne again! (After the 1 day that I'll be seeing u next week, of course)

me LOOOVVEEEEE u lonnnnggg time!

#139

2011-10-12T00:02:00.001+08:00

Slap me and wake me up.
I couldn't imagine how such a short journey could caused such huge impact, and I still can't understand it.
A short journey, yet a far one.
I've never thought I would ever fall into this kinda trap.

Going through this mental turmoil is definitely not fun.
True as it is, I guess I've been fooling myself into thinking that I'm alright.
That I'm up and tall on my own two feet.
Like the darling said, I've buried it so deep that I forgot about its existence.
As much as I want to grief over it, I just can't get myself to do it.
The darling said I've been strong for too long I've forgotten how it feels like to have tears rolling down.
I guess I've bottled this emotion up too much.

But meeting someone who resembles u so much in person really just push me into this deep dilemma.
I wish I could let u know that I miss u.
But truth is, it's not as easy as picking up the phone and calling the other side of the handset.

It's hard to wait for something u know might never happen, but it's harder to give up when u know it's everything you've ever wanted.
But when you're non-existent, the hope is also non-existent and I guess the only thing to do is to walk away from this pain.

But the question now is, how and where do I start, again?

#138

2011-09-27T01:02:00.001+08:00

People always say, stop looking back into the past and move on with life.

Well, some people dwell too much in those regrets, looking at the flashback moments before their eyes, wishing that they could change something about it, while overlooking what is in front them, and miss out on a bigger picture life could offer.
A bigger picture that could erase all those regrets that are flashing before their eyes at that very same moment they spent dwelling in sorrow which could lead them no where.

Yes, that might be somehow true, and partly, if not fully agreeable.
But truth is, without looking into the past and all the regrets done, how would one actually move on without repeating the same mistakes?

Looking back into the past could actually open up your eyes and make u see life more clearly.
Lets u see those mistakes u have did that build up those regrets.
Make u go "why didn't I realize this earlier?" or "how could I not see this coming?" or "why did I or why didn't do that?"
Makes u think a little harder and see the consequences of your actions.

Looking back at those past memories could actually help u to move on with in life a little easier.
Make u learn to appreciate life a tad bit more.
Make regrettable mistakes a little lesser.
And cherish everyone around u a whole lot more.

Now, whoever said looking back is a mistake one should never do?
Well, I don't know about u, but I think a little glimpse of the past would not hurt.
Memories will always be there, be it good or bad.
It's just the way u choose to look at it.

After all, this is your life.
If u can't even look into your past and all u've been through, how can u look yourself into moving forward and starting a new chapter?
Accept your past, and if you don't like it, change it on your future.
Make your future a memorable one, that can help u overcome your past, regrets and sorrows.

Life is short.
If u don't start today, when are u ever going to?

#137

2011-09-15T00:37:00.007+08:00

Everybody has their flaws. Some people just don't know how to be nice to people. Some just like to boss people around. Or say things that they don't mean to say. But u know what I do best? I drive people away, I drive them out of my life. And that has never been a problem for me. Driving people away.

Sometimes, I sit by myself thinking, why am I equipped with this supernatural power that I can't seem to control. I don't necessary need to do anything at all to drive people away. It just naturally happens when I don't do anything.

Funny thing is, it happens to people whom I actually want remained in my life. And on the other hand, people whom I don't want around, it always take a million times the effort (that I actually never put in), to drive them out of my life.

These people whom I don't wish to have around, maybe these people are those who sincerely wants to be around. While those who walked away, maybe they deserved to not be in my life. I don't know, I never understand the logic to it.

Maybe I need to open up my eyes to see who really deserves to stay and who deserves to be driven away. Or maybe I just need to wake up and see what the problem is within myself. Maybe I haven't been doing enough to deserve them. Maybe I've been missing out on the big picture.

Bottomline is, I drive people away. But I don't want to.

Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone

#136

2011-09-03T23:06:00.005+08:00

What if?

It struck me just a moment ago, after talking to the darling, that this has always been my ultimate question of all time.

What if I didn't do what I did?
What if I did what I didn't do?
What if I said words that I didn't say?
What if I didn't blurt out words that I've already said?
What if I knew the consequences and outcomes?

But now, the ultimate question is, if u could go back in time and change those things u did, or did not do, will u do it?
Will u go all the way back and change your actions to see a different outcome?
If u knew how the outcomes would be, will u try and do things differently?

There certainly are a lot of what if's in my life.
Constantly wondering if things would be better if I took the road not taken.
There certainly are a lot of regrets too, especially when things didn't turn out well. And that is when the ultimate question pops up, and keeps me wondering in my lost mind.

But if u were ever given the chance to take the road not taken, will u?
There definitely has been a lot of disappointments, leading to regrets.
But without those regrets and disappointments, how would I learn to appreciate all the other things in life?
I definitely had had my heart ached, faith crushed, hopes broken, but that is what makes me a stronger person today.
And experiences, that's what makes this ride worthwhile isn't it?

So again, if u were given a chance to go back in time to change one thing u did or never did, will u?

#135

2011-09-03T01:20:00.005+08:00

You know how they always say expectations is good because they bring u a step higher in achieving those goals?

Well, think again.
Sometimes in life, it's better not to have expectations because expectations give u a beyond achievable goal to score.

Sometimes, people expect too much. Wait, let me rephrase that. Most of the times, people expect too much.
And when this happens, this is when u know your expectations are way too far beyond achievable.
And these expectations are the ones that will pull u down to your knees, drag u a million miles, making u wonder why the fuck can't things go your way.

I'm not implying that one should not be putting expectations.
Expectations are needed to meet your goals in life too.
But what I'm saying is, these days people tend to expect too much from themselves or from others, be it their other halves, or anyone else that matters.

Give life a break. Quit making life too tough to even be cherished.
Draw down on the expectations, live a moderate life.
Give and take, compromise with life, with your surroundings, and with others around u.
You may actually see the beauty in all those u have missed out on, blinded by all the high expectations.

Appreciate the beauty of things just the way they are.
Because sometimes, things just seem to be more perfect that way.

#134

2011-09-01T00:13:00.001+08:00

It has been quite some time since I last left trace of my footprints here eyy?
Even cobwebs are starting to build up!

Well, I guess no updates from me pretty much explains it all.
My life is such a bore.
I have been kept busy with work and studies, routinely that I have nothing else interesting to blog about anymore.

Okay, for an instant update, I'm still ALIVE and KICKING!
That should be a good news right?
Secondly, 24 hours a day is no longer enough, like for REAL!
I've been battling against time every single day, and I don't even have enough hours to sleep.
It feels like I have to wake up the instance I fall asleep.
It's really tiring, but at least I'm keeping my days productive.

Oh have I told u, I have housemates now!
Yeapiedoos, I'm no longer staying alone.
My crazy babe moved in with me together with her wacko bf.
These 2 are my real crazy homies, and I'm glad I have them as my homies.
Things are definitely different having housemates around, with all the compromising compared to staying alone, but all is good :)

Other than that, I have a roommate for the next 2 months too.
The darling came back from Melbourne to do her internship for 3 months in KL and she's bunking in with me for the 3 months she is here.
It has been 1 month and I cherish the companion.

So the past 1 month had been great.
Coming home to the best 3 homies I could ask for, great dinner prepared by the them every other days.
And occasionally by me when the lazy bug decided to go lazy on me and leave me alone.

And I feel healthier too over the past few weeks coz of the constant gyming session.
Which reminds me, I've been slacking from my work-out for 1 week.
Time to get back in shape after last night's fattening buffet dinner at Makan Kitchen at Double Tree by Hilton with mommy dearest.

Just in case u have forgotten how I look like, here's a picture of me as a reminder. FYI, I can finally tie my hair up, ignoring the fact of how much hair pins I have to put on. But the point here is, YES! It has been that long since I've stepped foot here!

Alright, time to snooze!
First day of September. Wake me up when September ends, will u?

Toodles!

#133

2011-07-22T00:05:00.003+08:00

#132

2011-07-10T22:02:00.001+08:00

I'm doing a pretty great job in abandoning this space, yet once again.
*standing ovation*

I had been busy, busy and busy with work, holidays, entertaining the friends and planning my business.
And it has been taking up all my time, pretty productively too.
Now, I'm draining all my brain juice on how to start up my boutique, with the lowest possible cost.
Brain juice 90% drained out.
Need more brain juice!
Help, anyone?

#131

2011-06-19T18:37:00.001+08:00

True that.
And not many people can do that.
Only true friends understand u deep down.

#130

2011-06-12T02:28:00.001+08:00

The video parody is finally out! Check us out! Everyday we're shuffling at Hitz! WOOTTSSS! And tell me if u can spot Yours Truly! :)

#129

2011-05-30T16:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts,
and we are never, ever the same.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realised your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become.

Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself; it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

#128

2011-05-26T16:43:00.002+08:00

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Fu-zu Jen, SEAS/WH, 2003

#127

2011-05-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

U know, I find some things somewhat amusing, and I'm pretty impressed.

And I also find it hard to not being able to show your care for someone, not coz u don't want to, but coz u can't, or not permitted to.

I also find it funny how things can change a total 180degrees turn in such short period, but not turn another 180degrees to how they were before, when things seem to be pretty perfect in your eyes.

Sometimes, I wish I can read fortunes. Or more precisely, see the future. Or read pple's minds.

But what's done, is done. What has happened, cannot be changed. And damage that has been done, cannot be mend. Whatever happens, stay that way.

Sometimes, u just gotta realize that, some things are just not worth hanging on to.

#126

2011-05-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, my phone nearly got murdered while I was drinking away to the live band performance.
Apparently, my BB got a little thirsty that had too much of alcohol to drink, till it went drunk and black out on me.
And throughout the night, I was just really down thinking how the heck am I gonna revive my BB, or afford a new BB if it really died.
Luckily, I thought of burying it in the rice bucket when I got home.
The next day, my BB revived! With no hang-over!
YAYYYYY!

Thank god it escaped death.
Coz I was thinking how I am gonna survive with a regular phone, because I cannot afford a BB, or an Iphone, or an Android for that matter, at this point of time.

Gotta admit, technology really spoiled me.
I'm too dependent on you, technology.
Screw u!

#125

2011-05-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

So if you could, tell me which direction should I be taking.
Somehow, it's like I just can't see the directions anymore.
I'm just walking this walk, following wherever the path leads me to.
And this, is not fun, and is definitely bringing me no where.
Guess I really have to clear everything in my head, and think about where I want to go, and where I wanna be.
Opportunities are always around us, but we tend to space out or focus too much on what's in front of us, that we're overlooking all the opportunities surrounding us.
But right now, I've got too much in my head, too much of what I wanna have, and what I wanna achieve.
Where I wanna be, and where I wanna stand.
Too much that it is definitely blinding me in seeing everything else that's been happening around me.

I'm becoming really really greedy, and stepping on cloud nine, and definitely building too many castles in the air.
Someone please bring me back to reality!

#124

2011-05-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence

Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it

We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth

So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you

Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to

I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you

Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few

My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through

-Lupe Fiasco-

#123

2011-05-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

The hardest thing to do in life, is sending your loved ones away.
And I did the hardest thing I had to do in my life, twice in a month's time.
It definitely wasn't easy, but that's the thing I gotta do.

Definitely didn't make my already down days better.
I miss them, and I wonder how they're doing right now.

#122

2011-05-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

Take birthdays away from me.

Because birthdays never bring me any good, nor happiness.
It's always during birthdays that I am devastatingly let down.
It's always during the month of my birthday that something comes up, and draws the mood down.
This year is not any different.
True that I have received the best birthday present ever, but at the same time, I never knew birthday presents can turn bad.
But then again, thanks for the birthday present.
But I am not looking forward to any more birthdays ever, birthday presents neither.
I'd prefer everyday to be of nothing special, so I won't get crushed again, especially during the month where ur supposed to be happy, and enjoying every celebration of it.

I'd rather everyday be problem-free, philisophy, hakunamatata.

#121

2011-05-10T14:37:00.002+08:00

Writing a whole list of what I wanna do, and what I wanna achieve.
Definitely kills my time by being a little more productive, rather than sitting in the balcony, puffing away thinking what I should do.

First plan, is to get out of this shithole as soon as I can.
Go somewhere to start anew, take a gap year to relax and clear my mind, like how I've always planned but never did anything about it.
It's about time I start putting my thoughts into plans, and plans into actions.
And I think this is where I am starting it all.
After all, why do I wanna trap myself in a place where I don't wanna be, where I'm actually suffering, where I'm actually unhappy.
So yeah, this is currently on the top of my plan.

I'm also looking into starting my business back up again.
Yeah, my poor abandon blogshop.
I'm looking into venturing it with my babe.
And we're gonna slowly start it, hopefully it does work out.
I need the extra cash to achieve my above stated plan anyways.

So yeah, those 2 are currently on the top of my list now.
Time to really do something about it, and make it work.

Wish me luck guys!

-------------------------------------

On the side note, it's been a week since I got back from Melbourne.

The trip was alright, could have been better, but all in all, it was an experience.

And I'm really grateful for the trip.

What I really miss about Melbourne is the weather.

I expected it to be too cold for my liking, too cold to be bearable for me.

But amazingly, I love the cold weather.

And so when I step back to KL, I was totally hating the weather.

The weather has been crazily hot since the day I stepped down from the plane.

*hover cursor over pictures for clarity*

The beautiful Melbourne view from Eureka Skydeck 88.

The clean, peaceful streets of Melborne

Meeting up with Happy and Cynthia

Yummy macaroons from Cynthia

With one of the very few babes whom I trust

Goodbye, Melbourne

Till we meet again

Very little pictures from my very short trip there.

My phone wasn't working in Melbourne, which really kept me away from technology for the longest time I could ever imagine, ever since I got the BB.

Which also limits the snaps of pictures as I wasn't holding my phone more than half the time there.

Well, that's all for now.

I gotta go back to my plannings, and also not forgetting, getting back to my real life.

Time to stop dwelling in my deep thoughts.

#120

2011-05-08T22:44:00.003+08:00

U know that feeling when u found your happy ever after?
Or that feeling when u decided that your happy ever after is not happy ever after, after all?

Yeah I do too.
I know how it all feels.
I know how it feels like till I think I am numb, immune to it already.

Final say, once again, I give up.
I am hopeless when it comes to this.

Happily never after all.
That's just ain't for me.

#119

2011-05-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

Gotta find your inner strength
If you can't then just throw life away
Gotta learn to rely on you
Beauty, strength, and wisdom, too
You're beautiful inside and out
Lead a great life without a doubt
Don't need a man to make things fair
'Cuz more than likely he won't be there
Listen girl, gotta know it's true
In the end all you've got is you

-Hilary Duff-

#118

2011-05-04T22:53:00.005+08:00

F.A.I.T.H.

Those 5 little letters, so easily spelled out, but takes a lifetime to be built.
Those 5 little letters, which has such great and strong character, but easily crushed by a little word or action.
Those 5 little letters, that I really look up to, always finding a way to reach it, yet constantly fail to hold on to.

H.O.P.E.

Another word so simple, yet means so much.

Another word that gets crushed a tad bit too easily, despite how hard it is to be found.

Another word that took me a lifetime to be able to touch it, but never stayed long enough for me to treasure the greatness of those 4 simple letters.

Finding balance is never easy. It's always one or the other, pushing down the weight and making it hard to maintain a clean balance. I've been from sky high to rock bottom, a little too many times in my 22 years of life. Let's just say it's not an enjoyable roller coaster ride of my life. But then again, I wouldn't want to start comparing, some others would have gone through worse. So I'll just swallow my sorrow alone, and get over my rock bottom till i can finally spell out that 2 words again.

It does take some time to be able to spell them again. I know I eventually will, but how long it takes, I will never know till the time comes. It took me what seemed like a lifetime to finally spell F.A.I.T.H. and what seemed like forever to spell H.O.P.E after many attempts of giving up along the way. But it didn't take me long enough to hold on to it, coz at the next blink of an eye, before I knew it, those 9 letters just vanished off my sight again.

I never was the strong girl, despite how much I tried making myself appeal to all the others around me. What I wanna say is, I'm pretty good in the game of 'hide-and-seek', well mostly hide. I can appeal like the happiest girl with the sweetest smile, but deep down, nobody knows how deep the scar is in my heart. Nobody knows how many pins has gone through that little pumping instrument in the body. Long story short, nobody knows how much hurt that fragile thing has been through. Not till the point, where tears start rolling down these 2 cheeks. But no, nobody has to see that part, because it never is pretty.

I was never the person who would ever try giving up. Because I know for sure, chances don't always come and stay. And when they do appear, I'll grab them and make the best out of it. But sometimes, no matter how hard u try to hold on those chances, putting in your hard found F.A.I.T.H. and H.O.P.E., some things are just always out of your control. Most of the time, it takes 2 hands to clap. And when 1 hand starts giving up, u know that's when it will never work anymore.

Whether it's taking each other for granted, or people changing overtime, bottom line is, someone stops trying.

I dare say it wasn't me. But right now, I think I've decided, I will stop trying too. I'm so tired of trying so hard, I think it's time for a rest. And for once, I GIVE UP! At least giving up, will keep me out of hurt for awhile. This fragile heart can take no more.

#117

2011-04-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

It has been a hella crazy week with all the packing and moving to the new apartment.
And then cleaning the apartment.
And I've been waking up super dooper early to run my million and one errands.
I feel so productive!
I've never utilized so much of my time in my whole life until the past 1 week.
Been rushing to get everything done before I flee outta this place, can't wait!
And I've been doing a great job at it!

I've finally settled everything I needa do.
Settled myself in the apartment, getting what I need, spending hell lots of money with all the moving and shopping for the unnecessary, settling all the bills, getting all my needs sorted out.
And at the same time show up for work and attending classes.
PHEWWW!
It definitely wasn't easy, that's all I can say.
For the past 1 week, I really wished I had 48 hours in a day!
But I managed anyways.

Tonight, I'm just gonna get a really good rest.
Waiting for my long awaited trip out of this place, and just have a good time with the greatest companion I could ask for.
Speaking bout which, I needa start packing.
Whoever said I am finally free?

Oh myyy, better get starting before I run out of time.
Oh wait, I can't pack as yet, need to do the laundry!
Something for me to get started on right now.

Till then, u shall hear from me soon.

#116

2011-04-14T23:11:00.001+08:00

Couldn't be any happier :)

And that's the truth.

#115

2011-04-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yes, that's right.
Another year has passed, and it's time for me to blow off the candles once again.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

This year, I've agreed with my own self, that I don't wan any fancy parties nor fancy celebrations.
And plus, I've already got the best birthday present I can ever ask for.
So no fancy parties it was.
A little dinner and a few drinks with the babe earlier.
Maybe Sunday lunch with the babes from work whom I miss so dearly.
And yeah I guess that's it.

I'm just looking forward to my best birthday present ever.
The thought of that beats having all the parties and celebrations.

And anyways, if I didn't blow off any candles this year, does that mean I'm still 21?
I definitely am!
Forever 21 it is.
I love the idea :)

#114

2011-04-07T23:09:00.001+08:00

This is super exciting!
I've gotten the best birthday present in my life, EVER!
And my birthday is still a week away.
Let's just say I've gotten a huge advanced birthday present which only takes effect after my birthday.
And also let's put it this way, I've gotten something I wished for, for a long time, and I hope it's all worthwhile!

Thank you for the present, and for being so awesome!

Now my 2011 is starting to look good.
I take back my words about 2012 being the end of the world.
Now I wanna see more of what the world can offer me!

So, bring it on Big Man!

#113

2011-04-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

The most unpredictable things happen when u least expect it, no?
Let's just say, I never knew I would feel this way.
Things are getting interesting these days.
I've yet to figure if this is just temporary.
But let's just hope it turns out good.
Let's just take one day at a time.

#112

2011-04-01T23:10:00.011+08:00

Things had been quite hectic recently all thanks to my best profession in the world, being a procrastinator.

I've been rushing every single thing around me, although it didn't have to resolve to this way at all.
I'm just too lazy to get started on doing anything at all in the world.
Even when I've got nothing to do and complaining about boredom, I'll still rather do nothing than getting started with what I'm supposed to be doing and this is not healthy at all.

My room's in a huge tornado mess too.
Anyone who enters my room will find difficulty finding an empty spot on the floor to step on coz everything is literally all over the place.
And my job is not helping with the messiness AT ALL coz I occasionally bring back more and more junks, which is like everyday actually.
So yeah, I think I'll have a serious tough time when it comes to packing up for my new place.

Anyways, I haven't been talking about my new place yet.
I'm gonna be moving out of my TTDI home in less than a month time, and yeah definitely gonna miss this place a lot.
It's a really nice place to live in, minus the annoying neighbors and the frequent electrical problems and black-outs we have.
And also minus the nomad house mates, which is the main reason I'm moving out of this place, besides the high rental, high bills and high maintenance.
But the thing I love about this place is the location coz it is really convenient and accessible, and I can cut all the jams by taking the alternative routes and whatsoever.
But I guess u have to sacrifice some to earn some ey?

So I'll be moving to my friend/ex-colleague's place, from Kim Realty, when I was working part-time as admin/general clerk (I don't even know what position I was because I'm practically just leeching on the pay) for like 2 months in year 2007.
He has a place in Sri Hartamas/ Segambut which is left empty coz he is currently doing business in Kuching.
So he actually offered me his master room but practically he's renting me the whole unit actually la, just so there is someone in the house, can jaga his house ma.
I thought it was a really good deal, so yeah, why not right?
I'm paying rental for a room but I'm practically staying in the whole place alone! WOOTTTTSSS!

So yeah, and another thing I'll miss is the UNIFI!
Oh God, trust me, Unifi has awesome connection and speed!
But I can't apply for Unifi even if there are services in my new place, coz it is too expensive to be beared by me alone with my friggin' low pay I'm getting being a slave under the sun everyday doing slavery work.

And yeah, I guess u kinda figured, I kinda hate my job now.
The job is awesome la actually.
But I'm just not as comfortable working with this new team as how it was with the Runners.
And the weather nowadays, cannot tahan la.

U guys have no friggin' idea how friggin' hot it is these days coz 99% of u all sit under the roof, with the aircon blowing in your face.
While slaves like me work under the hot sun, standing there for hours just to entertain people.
Now, whoever said entertaining people is easy?
The weather is just too friggin' hot, it's unbearable.
So I beg u all, PLEASE STOP GLOBAL WARMING!

*hover cursor over image for clarity*

*that was a community message brought to you by , yes YOURS TRULY*

#111

2011-03-31T23:17:00.001+08:00

I just got back from FUTSAL!

WOOOTTTSS!

I bet this is the first time u guys are hearing me play some sports right?

I don't play any sports actually, just not brought up to playing sports.

Unless occasional soaking in the pool swimming 1/10 of a lap, is called a sports.

Or running up/down the escalator in the shopping mall in a hurry to the loo.

Other than that, I don't touch sports at all.

Yeah, Sabby asked me to join her and her friends, and I did!

It was one hell of an awesome hour, I think I'm gonna make this my weekly regime! LOL!

How much fun I had, and how much sweat I lost just being an idiot chasing after one stupid ball.

Tripping over the ball, falling flat on my ass.

Yeah that is just how bad I was on the court, looking pretty dumb like a blond dumb.

Only thing missing is my blond hair and fair skin.

Funny what a stupid little ball can to do humans ey?

If u think humans are smart, well think again!

#110

2011-03-30T23:59:00.010+08:00

Seems like this blog is lacking some pictures.

Haven't been snapping pictures lately.

Been lacking the motivation to snap on the go already.

Don't know why.

These are the latest pictures I found on my cam.

Prolly my only few pictures I have taken in these past couple of months.

This is us last week, at The Hill in Damansara.

Awesomely beautiful place I must say.

Damn I should have snapped some pictures of the place and show it to u guys.

Maybe next time.

*hover cursor over images for clarity*

Darling Jamie and I

Rachel & Rachel

It has been a long time since I hang out with these babes.
Especially Jamie.
It has been more than half a year I haven't met her and Kat due to my busy-ness and time conflict and some undue reasons.
It's nice to finally hang out with some familiar faces again.

More to come, and our upcoming vacation!
OMG I've been excited for the third day in a row!

#109

2011-03-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

My oh my!
Somebody has gotta help me out with my current obsession of clicking webs after webs after webs finding information about hotels, accessibilities and places to visit in Bangkok and Krabi.
My eyes are getting sore from me sitting in front of the laptop for consecutive hours.
It's not much of a problem to find info about Bangkok because I've been there a couple of times already, and I found a really nice boutique hotel that I so wanna stay in coz it's so comfy!

Coming to Krabi was a bit more chaos coz I've never been there.
The darling asked if I wanna go to the beach after our Bangkok trip and immediately I said YESSS!
Of coz I wanna go to the beach, I FREAKING LOVE THE BEACH!
If I could make the beach my bff, I would have (as long as Tsunami stays out of our friendship).
So she asked me to plan on where to go and I immediately thought KRABI!
Krabi is a damn nice place ok!

There's Phi Phi Island where Leonardo Dicaprio filmed the movie 'The Beach'.
Then there's Phang Nga Bay where 'the Bond movie: The Man with The Golden Gun' was shot there.
How can u not wanna go to such place.
It definitely spells P-A-R-A-D-I-S-E!

So this afternoon, I booked our air tickets KL-Bangkok and then from Bangkok-Krabi, and finally Krabi-KL.
And it costs me less than 500bucks per person.
I think it summed about 430bucks per person.
Awesome not?

So ever since I booked the tickets, I've been sitting in front of the comp searching high and low for hotels out of a trillion and one recommended on the web, searching for activities to be done on Krabi - city tours, snorkeling, sunbathing, rock climbing, island hopping, nightlife and another million and one things u can do there and I'm still searching for more.
I've been looking at all the packages that we can get, hotel + tour packages.
And the calculator has been so loyal to me for the past 12 hours since I booked my tickets during noon time.

I'm so engrossed over this vacation till I was so lazy to cook myself dinner, or go tapao that I'm just snacking on biscuits that are within my reach in my room.
And I haven't even taken my evening shower, which I should really be doing right now before hopping to bed.

So yeah, I think I need someone to drag my away from my laptop which is exhausted over all the searches it has been doing for me too.
So I better be getting going for now.
Time to take my shower before I doze off to my dreamland.

TATA!

On a second thought, maybe I'll just take another 10 minutes stocking up on My Shops in Facebook.
Teehee!

#108

2011-03-28T23:40:00.004+08:00

Woohoooo!
The dearies and I are planning for a vacation next year!
Don't gimme the look, I know there's still a year to the next year but at least there's a plan ok.
And I need the time to save up for the vacation anyways.

This afternoon, I went to TM to enquire about my Unifi service because I'll be moving to my new place in a month time!
Woohoooo! Another thing I'm looking forward to, the whole house all to myself! *smiles*
Anyways, about the Unifi thingy, I'm hoping they don't have the coverage at my new place by the time I move, coz if they do, I'll have to continue on with the service which will cost a bit too much for my own expense.
Afterall, I don't need such a fantastic connection as I'll be using it alone.
So if the coverage haven't reach my new place, I can take the relocation plan and downgrade my plan to some cheaper Streamyx plan.
But if they already cover that area in a month time, then it's either I pay 300bucks to relocate my Unifi or pay 500bucks to terminate my service. Such a slit-throat spam right!
So I'll keep praying for it not to happen! *fingers cross*

Ok, back to my vacation story.
I was supposed to be in class after enquiring about the Unifi thingy, but I was half an hour late, and I was feeling lazy too.
So instead I drove to Ikea to wander around alone, I somehow love wandering alone I don't know why.
I initially wanted to go to 1Utama to get a pedicure and eyebrow trimming, but I don't know what happened coz when I woke up from my drowning thoughts, I was already in the carpark of Ikea.
Weird I know, but sometimes my mind takes over me, which is too occassionally.

Ok, back again to my vacation story which I haven't started on yet.
I was wandering around, claiming my free ice-cream from New Zealand Natural Ice-Cream and then claiming my free rootbeer and fries from A&W, all perks from my job.
Then my phone rang, and it was Jamie calling.
I thought she was gonna ask me out for a drink again, but instead, she asked if I'm free to go on a vacation next year to Bangkok.
I was all in as soon as she finished her question, because I would be free as I just finish my studies by then and YES I NEED A VACATION!
So I agreed to it and we're planning for a Bangkok-Krabi trip in February next year.
Air tickets are like cheap too! It's like about 500bucks for KL-Bangkok-Krabi-KL.
WOOOOTTTTS!
Awesome not?

So vacation wish on wishlist crossed!
The plan for now is to starve myself for the next 10 months to save up for some shopping therapy!
OMG! I'm already so damn excited!
Now, I just gotta call the darling to check if the tickets are already booked! *fingers crossed*

#107

2011-03-24T21:57:00.002+08:00

I've just spend a bomb for my current fortune a few days back on my car and I'm not even 1/100 done with fixing my baby junk car.
Having a broken bumper for assumable alcohol-induced driving by some drunkard.
Sigh. Doesn't this suck!
I don't know when I would ever finish repairing this car coz I'm too broke to even feed myself. Plus, I think by the time i finish fixing all on the list, I would need to go back to number 1 and start fixing it up again.
I wish I have the money to do it up all at once so I would have a time-off from thinking about my poor baby car for a while.

So anyways, enough about the car.
These past few days, I've been neglecting everything I need to do and just go all in on whatever plans that came up.
Sherms was in town for the past few days so I had dinner and drinking sesh with him, which results in me neglecting my assignments.
Hence, I need to rush everything by tonight.

Can't believe I'm already having the graduation project stress when I'm still a year away from graduating.
This uni is seriously hectic with the millions of assignments deadlines they throw on us pity students.
And I'm not even taking the graduation project subject as yet, but I need to hand in my graduation project proposal tomorrow, along with my another business research assignment.
It's true what they say about u don't know hell about college/uni until u need to do a thesis.

If only procrastination wasn't my best career ever, I would have been out having happy hour after work with the sayang Jamie and maybe partying away with the guys, Joey and Fabien who are in town at the moment.
But noooohhh! I chose the best career NEVER created and so here I am, sitting miserably in front of my laptop, cracking my head and squeezing my brain juice to finish up the bloody assignments and graduation project proposal.

Ok, change of topic for awhile.
It is so devastating to know that I am working in a radio station which is officially supporting Bruno Mars' upcoming concert, but I do not bloody have passes or tickets to watch the concert.
Isn't this just ridiculously stupid?
We are the official radio station anyways, and we are working our asses off, dealing with crazy Bruno Mars fans chasing us all around town and fighting for the tickets when we could actually just run away with those tickets.
The least u could do is give us the cheapest tickets u guys have (it's sponsored anyways) rather than bloody giving those useless bastards sitting in the office doing nothing but complain, complain and complain at the smallest bloody thing ever.
Sigh. I would appreciate a pair of ticket as my birthday present this year :(

Noo, the no.1 radio station isn't as cool as u think it is.

#106

2011-03-20T16:14:00.000+08:00

Too many emo posts recently.
Cos I haven't seen the clear skies for the past couple of months.

Time to be more positive.
About what I don't know.

Coming up on my to-do list:
1. Get my car repaired and fixed, which will cost me a bomb for my current fortune.
2. Settle my house, try to contact the god damn landlords!
3. Find moving trucks to move my stuff over to new place in another month time
4. Get doggie to her new place, hoping she can get used to the new companion
5. Find a higher paying job
6. Plan for a holiday far far away from here, really just need that right now
7. Complete my assignments and start studying for exams

But now, just need to laze some more in my bed coz the weather is so cozy with the pouring rain outside my window. *yawns*

#105

2011-03-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

There are people willing to walk this life with u, but u just don't seem to appreciate them.
Or just pure unwilling to take them in.
And at the end of the day, u'll wish for someone to be there, to warmth your lonely days.

#104

2011-03-17T00:12:00.001+08:00

Hey, it has been awhile.

Things are not going so well on my side.
There are so many things to worry about.
More and more coming up, which seriously sucks.

There are rent and house problem.
Then there's car problem.
Then studies.
Then work.
Then family.

Working with Hitz cruisers is definitely not as fun anymore.
I miss the Mix roadrunners.
It kinda sucks being a cruiser coz it's different.
Same boss, but attitude change.
Different team, not as helpful as the roadrunners.

So life's pretty much a burden for me now.
Wish life didn't have to come so rough on me.

#103

2011-03-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

I wished I can put life on pause.
Because I really just need a break.

A break to think clearly, without another occurrence that would come up and contaminate my already messed up head.

I don't want to wake up everyday for the sake of getting through the damn days.
I don't want to go to bed, with a mind full of worries, in tears.

I'm left here hanging.

And this sucks.

I don't know how to please myself anymore, or anyone else around me.

I don't remember how it feels to be happy anymore.

I just need a break in my life.

Just hand over the remote control to me already.

#102

2011-03-04T12:32:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I really wonder what's worth of life.
Is life really worth all the fights and effort u put in, not knowing what the outcomes are?

At times, I just wish life and mankind aren't as complicated as they all seem now.
How I wish innocence and naivety are what's ruling the world and everybody's head.
Then, life wouldn't ever seem to be difficult at all anymore.

I mean, why can't everything be seen like through the eyes of a 7 years old.
Where life is all just about fun and worry-less.
If a 7 years old can do it, then why can't we?
Why is that, as we grow older, our mind starts to complicate everything, including our own self.

I guess, that's the question that will never be answered ever.

Ahhh, maybe I'm just draining myself in my self-pity game.
Time to clear my head and get straight with what life is all about, and how I want it to be.
No more polluting my brain with unnecessary shits.

#101

2011-02-26T23:35:00.001+08:00

I'm going home next week again!
WHEEEE!
Most probably going back, not sure if I want to or not as well.
Assignments are pilling up, pay is getting lesser.
Maybe I shall spend more time working and completing assignments instead of going back for another holiday.
But but...... ahhh shall see, shall see.

After years and years, I've finally went to Genting Theme Park for some adrenaline rush and stress-relief therapy.

Had a great time screaming my lungs out and deafening my own ears while screaming.
Couldn't believe I took the Space Shot ride twice today, when I never ever dare to take it at all before this.
It was so freaking scary coz when we're shooting down from the sky, our asses are lifted from the seat.
We were hanging in the air, which scared the shit outta me.
But it was fun, so we took another ride before we left.

Hell yeah, it was a fun day!

#100

2011-02-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

First day of class today, and we've already been thrown with a bunch of workload and assignments.
Whoever said studies were easy?
I hated the fact that I needa attend classes, sit through hours of boring lectures and tutorials, completing a million and one assignments, and then finally stress out studying for the final exams.
But one thing for sure is, I need to finish up my studies this year, and that I'm not kidding.
I've been slacking too much on my studies, and dragging my subjects and slowing the pace of everything else.
It's just like studies are the last thing I ever wanna do in my life.
But this year, I need to focus, focus and FOCUS!
Which means, I would have to work less, which means lesser income, which means lesser shopping and spending, which means no social life anymore, well not like I have a great one also.

Anyways, I've got tickets booked to go home to paradise next week.
But I'm not quite sure if I could go back, because I have got to hand in an assignment already on the second week of the semester.
How sad, I ask u?
I really wanna go back home.
How now brown cow? :(

p/s: I'm waiting for a call, or a message from u. Where are u?

#99

2011-02-15T01:20:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

Or belated it should be.
But question is, why is today (yesterday) such an overrated day?
Is it only during this specific day that u have to show extra love and prove your love to your loved ones, buy nice gifts or show sincerity by hand-making gifts for your other half?
Aren't u supposed to show love, care and affection throughout the whole life-long journey?
Maybe for most people, Valentine's Day is a really special day, but I think it's just an overrated day to spend your extra hard earn money to buy extremely expensive dinners and gifts.
It's a real benefit for business owners though, especially diners and florists and gift shops.

And after all, Valentine's Day is haram u know?
"Maksiat, Disco, Couple Couple bersunyi sunyian, inilah tradisi masyarakat yang beragama Kristian".

Stupid narrow minded people giving their narrow minded opinion without realizing that Valentine's day is not even a religious celebration by the Christians.
Go read more books, see the world, or just shut the fuck up!

#98

2011-02-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

Looking back, I realized some people are not worth the help u've given.
Some may lie to your face, to get your sympathy and help.
Couldn't believe how naive and stupid I was to sacrifice and almost losing my studies just to help people, whom u thought are true to u and really needs your help, and whom u thought are telling u the truth.
And when I suddenly realized it (like how the light bulb suddenly lights up in cartoons) and relate everything together, to see the lies I've been told, all I can do is blame how stupid I was because I'm the only one who's feeling the hurt and pain.

#97

2011-02-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

Reporting from the city of cats with pictures from the Chinese New Year.

Our new year's eve dinner at home.

And the 2nd day of CNY.

My handsome boy says GONG XI FA CAI!

Elvis with grandma.

Elvis with mommy, grandma n aunty bully.

Elvis with his aunt, the big bully.

Elvis with mom and dad.

#96

2011-02-03T15:20:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year peeps!
It's the year of the rabbit, hop hop hop till d end of the year like a happy bunny k?
May u find lotsa fresh yummy carrots!
Enjoy your new year guys!

Lots of love!

Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

#95

2011-01-31T15:12:00.002+08:00

Back in the home sweet home.
Wishing my buruk KL car is back with me here in Kuching.
Coz it is so inconvenient without any car to move around.
And I don't know how to take the public transport here.
I don't think I've ever taken the public transport here either.
It's like I know KL more than I know the place I call home.
Funny but true.

Yesterday was the most dramas I've been through coming back home.
I didn't buy a check-in luggage because I never buy any when I go back home.
I would just drag my luggage onto the plane and I never got stopped.
But yesterday, I was stopped to ask to weigh my luggage, coz hand-carry luggage is only limited to 7kgs.
But my luggage was 13kg so they didn't allow me to hand carry it in.

I ran all the way to the baggage counter, and they told me the system was closed already coz it was half an hour from the departure time.
So I pushed my luggage to the side, taking out stuff so it would weigh less, walked in and got stopped again.
And my hand-luggage was still overweight.
Had a little argument with the guards coz he asked me to go back to the counter to check in my luggage, and my flight is departing in 10mins time.
So I ran all the way to another counter, and THANK GOD he let me check in my luggage, after paying 40bucks for it.

So after I checked in, I was asked to run to the boarding gate coz it was 5mins to departure time.
Ran in all the way, only to see that the plane wasn't even ready for boarding.
I only boarded the plane half an hour later.

And the flight took 2 and a half hours, the longest KL-KCH flight I've ever taken in my life!
Weather was so bad in Kuching, the pilot didn't want to land.
Must be afraid of the plane skid incident that happened few weeks back.
I sat in the plane till I couldn't feel my ass.
My ass was numb from sitting on the uncomfortable airplane seat.
And the flight was so rocky, it felt like I'm riding a floating roller coaster.

And poor mommy waited for me at the airport for an hour.

I came home, and the buddy stared at me in curiosity, with his huge round eyes.
He stared at me and looked away, stared back at me and looked away, and repeats for a hundred times.
Which makes all of us laughed.
He was actually frightened when I go near him. LOL.
And OMG! He's grown so much since the past 2 months.
Couldn't believe babies grow this fast!

And now, I'm bored at home, waiting for the sister to buy some milk to start baking the cakes.
*YAWNS*
Maybe I should take a nap while waiting for her.

TATA!

#94

2011-01-30T01:48:00.001+08:00

Today marks the last day of the Mix FM Roadrunners.

Starting this moment, I'm officially not a Roadrunner anymore.

The Roadrunners does not exist anymore right now, it is now a history.

Same goes to the other few stations, Sinar, X.FM and THR Raaga.

These few stations are the unfortunate few who falls under the budget cut, therefore scrapping off the on-ground team.

Therefore, we all gathered for the final last cross at Tupai-Tupai to do our cross over (which didn't happen) and lepaked for awhile.

I had a super memorable time in the Roadrunners.

I've learnt a lot, and it was definitely a good experience.

And the people I've worked with are a bunch of amazing people.

I'm gonna miss them heaps!

Wait, what am I saying, I'm already missing them :(

We had awesome fun recording our crosses today.

We went against the rule of 1 person per recording, and did a 3 person recording instead.

And it was awesome fun, we sounded superb, and it was definitely different compared to the everyday boring shit.

A couple of regulars came and join us for the last time, and we gave them 10 times more freebies than usual. LOL.

It was awesome fun la.

I had a great time with this bunch of amazing people.

Definitely missing the people and the job already.

Took gazillion pictures today.
Playing more with the color flash accessory thingy.
And took with my action camera, which I hope would look nice when I developed the film of pictures, took some more on Sabby's Lego camera, and polaroid.

So yeah, that's it.
That's the end of the Mix FM Roadrunners.
I'm no more a Roadrunner.

I'm still considering whether to join the Hitz Cruisers.
But right now, just gonna take my 2 weeks off for CNY.
Going back to Kuching tomorrow.
Can't wait to get back and see the buddy and the family, and the besties too.

#93

2011-01-30T01:28:00.001+08:00

Hello guys!

I have got a new hair do!

If u have not seen my new picture on FB, then guess u wouldn't know.

Few days back, I chopped off my long hair, and now my hair is super dooper short!

It didn't turn out too bad.

I kinda like it, except the fact that I gotta wake up 15mins earlier everyday just to wash and blow dry then style my hair.

I've got good reviews and bad ones too.

I've surprised everybody at work with the super short hair.

Everybody is still questioning me about my hair.

Apparently, I'm everyone's 'bro' at the moment so I'll greet them with a 'bro' punch when I see them everyday. LOL!

So here are some pictures from last night at Sid's.

I've discovered this amazing color flash accessory for these awesome pictures.

Now who needs a lomo!

My super adorable shirt! *loves*

Aren't the effects on the pictures amazing?
Super in love with this new discovery.
Have to thank d photographer too for discovering more things to do with those few pieces of color flash.

Thank uuuu :)

#92

2011-01-21T02:28:00.002+08:00

Funny how humans can swear about a certain something that will never ever happen, reassure that something they will never do, and giving all the advises to others about not being dragged more into some shit-holes they're in, but the very next moment, these are the exact same people who make these things happen, did what they thought was wrong and wouldn't happen before, and drag themselves into the same shit-hole, or worse, that they advised people on.

It all makes everything seems like a huge lie.
And that's what is annoying.
Being lied to, being cheated on.
When that's the last thing u wan to deal with, coz lies are the last rated thing u would ever wanna face.

When would all the lyings in this life going to end?
21 years, coming to 22, of lies are more than enough for a 21 years old, coming to a 22.
A bit too much lie for a quarter of a life don't you think?

A lie for a happy ending is different than a lie that would hurt in the end of time.
A lie for a good cause and a pure lie is just not the same.

If only people (including me) understood this simplest contrast ever, or understood the pain caused by a lie, then this world would be lie-free.
But guess this world is built mainly based on lies these days.

#91

2011-01-21T01:48:00.001+08:00

ALOHA!
I have just recovered from my chicken pox disease.
Wait, maybe just starting to recover but I'm back out on track.
Back to work and all, and yes! This is much better than being stuck at home, doing bloody nothing, and eating the same old food every single day.
Funny how I was able to do that everyday before, that all I wanna do is stay at home and do nothing.
Going home straight after college, or staying home everyday if there are no classes.
But now, although I pretty much wanna get home everyday after work and just laze at home, I cannot stand staying home for more than a couple of days anymore.

Anyways, I just finished my finals yesterday and I had to say, the paper I'm not ready for, was easier than I expected.
And the paper that I thought I could score, kicked me in the ass.
It was tough like hell, and trust me when I say I have no confidence in passing the paper. FTS!

And today, I'm back at work and I found out some not nice stories about this specific idiot manager, who already had so much hatred from people in the office.
Ok, I'm gonna spill the beans now about what's going on with the Mix FM Roadrunners.
The Roadrunners are gonna be closing down by next weekend, due to apparently cost-saving shit.
But the truth is, it's coz of the malfunction in the brain of this specific idiot manager.
I have already got my ass backed up, by getting into Fly FM Troopers, which hopefully is a much better radio station to work with.
But a couple of my colleagues are still looking around for something to do.
And we were actually promised to be absorbed into Hitz Cruisers if we are still to stay after the closing down of the Roadrunners.

But specifically today, I was told none of us are being absorbed to Hitz Cruisers coz this specific idiot manager doesn't approve of it.
Funny thing is, Hitz Cruisers are seriously running low on manpower, and they're desperately finding people to join the team.
And the reason the specific idiot manager gave about not absorbing the remaining Roadrunners to the Hitz Cruisers is they're cutting down on cost.
Now now, please explain to me how u'r gonna cut down on cost, if u are actively searching for a couple of new Cruisers, but then not wanting to absorb any of the Roadrunners who really needs a job.
That's pretty stupid don't you think?
If you're gonna need to hire another 1 or 2 Cruisers, then wouldn't it be the same if u pull over 1 or 2 of the current Roadrunners to fill in the position?
You would save so much time getting the right person to fit the position, and training them to do the job right, because we already know the job well enough to detailedly explain to you in the middle of our deep sleep.
And you wouldn't be cutting on cost either coz we have a set of maximum people working everyday, and everyday it is the exact amount of people working too.
So how it that suppose to save a single bit of your cost huh?
SMART ASS!

He's just a deep pain in the ass, who is way overpaid to be doing nothing and bossily ordering people in the office to do his dirty job.
Common, he's paid the total budget of the Roadrunners. or Cruisers, which it like 7-8k, and all that's growing on him is his big, fat, round tummy, and not the productivity of the radio stations and on-ground team.

So escaping this story, my colleague apparently got chicken pox from me.
Remember the weird ass colleague who thinks he's a bomoh I was talking about it post #83?
Yeah, that specific colleague.

He came to work with some pox growing on his face, and I immediately felt bad for spreading the pox to him until he told me that he was trying to grab the pox/sickness/disease away from me with his 'healing power' and he took it, but forgot to 'lock' it properly, so he's getting the pox now.
OMG! That's like the lamest thing anybody has ever told me la.
All these while working with him, I have to listen to these bullshits everyday, can u believe it?
If I'm at work and down with fever or some discomfort, he'll come telling me in the next few days that he caught the sickness from me and now he's getting it himself.
And funny thing is, if I'm sick and I took MC off work, he wouldn't be getting any of my sickness at all.
What about u just come straight and tell me that your body's immune system is just pretty weak to be around sick people, that's why u are always affected by contagious sicknesses everytime there's some germs in the air?

I told Sabby, my awesomest colleague, and she was super annoyed about it too.
She came up saying, 'OMG! I don't think he has gotten pox before that's why he's getting it now. This guy will never learn laa!'
And yeah, I've gotta agree with Sabby la.
That's just seriously pure bullshit laa.

So anyways, yeah that's the story on my current job la.
Although I've gotta admit that it's the best damn job in the world, it's not the best place to be working at because the management here sucks!
Just so you know, although the company has the best rated radio stations in the country, it's not that great after all, especially once u've seen the inside of the company and it's management.
And plus, I have to go through the shit-ass bullshits of my colleagues everyday for the past 8-9 months! -_-

So that's all for now!
Imma go grab my sleep now.
Oh I had a smooth drink of single malt scotch with the housemates just now.
Bowmore, which is really nice and flavorful.
And it's probably like one of the very few times I drink whisky neat.
Because it is just that damn smooth.

Okay Imma go now before I start talking like I'm some alkie or drunkie.
TATA!

One of the biggest hatred in my life is being lied to.

I have enough lying to my face, since I was a kid.

From lies of the parents, or more specifically a parent.

To lies of friends, to the exes.

I don't need more lying.

I need reassurance instead of lies, or maybe just proves.

Fuck all the lies!

#90

2011-01-15T17:29:00.002+08:00

Haiyoohh!

Need to get over the obsession of Lomo cameras laa.

Why is it so addictive huhhh?

Got an action camera for Christmas and I thought that would satisfy the need of having some cheap plastic cameras.

But now, I wan better cameras, with Lomo effects.

How laaa :(

Just look at the effects of the pictures taken. So temptingggg!

And look, they even have Lego digital cameras!!!

Ok time to start starving.

Oh wait, have to save for my bike also!

Serious case of money not enough!
Howwww laaa :(

#89

2011-01-15T12:01:00.002+08:00

These are super adorable caricatures I've gotta share with u guys.

Let's see if u can tell who is who.

LOL.
Something different from the normal caricatures.
Nicely done.

#88

2011-01-14T15:09:00.000+08:00

This chicken pox staying at home, studying, and eating simple home-cooked food is not working.
I got too bored staying at home and too sick eating same kinda food everyday, I started going out for dinner for the past few nights.
And staying at home didn't help with my revision too. FML.

So anyways, the other day, while I was out looking for dinner, busy walking all the corners of KD looking for something nice that I can actually eat, I looked up at a boutique and saw the signboard saying Chic Couture.
WTF! WTF WTF WTFFFF!

That's like more than half of my e-boutique name!
Chic Vogue Couture -> Chic Couture ?!!?!?!!
That's what u get if u'r doing a business, and not registering your company.
FTS!
I know I have been abandoning the blogshop since aeons ago, but that doesn't mean I can let people steal my boutique name.
So in a grouchy mood now.
DAMN U CHIC COUTURE!

I'm gonna go into deep thinking mode, thinking of a new boutique name.
And probably registering it this time.
And going serious into doing it constantly.
Yeap you've heard right, there goes my starting up my e-boutique mode once again.

#87

2011-01-13T02:09:00.001+08:00

OMG I can't stop starring at my Facebook profile page!
I still can't get over how cool it looks right now.
It's like the bestest profile I've ever seen in my entire life!

Ok this is a serious case of SS (syiok sendiri).
But u've gotta check it out to see what I'm talking about.
If you don't have my FB, head over to http://www.facebook.com/jillysong NOOOWWWW!

Something to keep me off from thinking too much, and emo-ing in one corner of my room.
And something to keep me all packed up in procrastination.
Time to really start studying tomorrow!

Now, I'm just gonna go back starring at my FB and drool over what a genius I am!
But credits have to go to the darling for coming up with that awesomest idea ever ;)

AWESOME POSSUM!!!

#86

2011-01-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

Confused.
Asked for what I thought I wanted.
Nopes, still feels sth is missing.
Can't believe this is happening all over again.
It's like dejavu.
Wish I don't have such a complicated mind.
Just feel like taking a grenade, jump in front of a train or take a bullet right through my brains, just like Bruno Mars, except this is just to end d confusion that's in my brain.

#85

2011-01-11T00:21:00.006+08:00

Learning how to blog from my phone.
Apparently, we can blog via mobile phone that I never knew of.
I kept thinking that there is a blogger app on the BB that I have yet to know of but after googling it, VOILA! I'm blogging via my BB.
Awesome!

Well, I'm having some time alone at home.
I wasted my day not studying.
I always find better things to do when it comes to studying.
Le sigh.

Why is it that when I have alone time, I never quite like it but when I don't have alone time, I'm craving for one.
I used to hate being alone but after I learn to cope with it, I find it very much favorable, till I don't like having guests over.
I've became quite a loner after.
And now tonight, I'm having my own real alone time, all d privacy I can have to myself yet I'm not elated.

What is that I want in my life?
To be alone, or to not be alone.
Maybe I'm confused.
Trapped between what I want and what I don't.

But the thing is, I don't know what I want.
Not anymore.

Was reading my old posts. Like everyone of them.
Gives me a weird feeling bout my life, now and then.
Like something is missing in my life now compared to before, yet I don't want to go back to that old life.
I really don't get me sometimes.
What's this dilemma all about?
Le sigh.

Gotta start finding my own ways and finding what I really want in life again.
This is tough.
Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

#84

2011-01-10T11:54:00.002+08:00

Birthday resolution, get a bike license!
Woohoo!
Sounds like a great plan indeed!
Just hope that I don't ride the bike into the fence or something.
And then, a new resolution in another few months after, get a bike!
OMG! Can't wait to be able to ride a bike!
VESSSPPPAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
Uhuhhhh *nodding head* talk about riding in style!

And resolution by this week, get rid of this damn chicken pox!
Grrrrr! Looking like the shittiest thing ever!

Finals coming up next week.
Ugghhh!
Hate hate hates!
Chicken pox came at the right time though.
Maybe I'm meant to stay at home and study.
But that's not always the case (I mean studying) even though I'm trapped at home facing these four walls, with no entertainment and technology.
I always tend to find better alternatives, such as SLEEPPP!
Okay maybe it's time I really get back on track on my studies eyy.
Le sigh.

Here's a damn addictive song! Hell yeah for a local artist.

Najwa - Got To Go

This time I'm gonna live my life, I ain't no stepford wife, No I ain't perfect, Gonna find somebody who's worth it, And no, you ain't that person, Coz i caught you constantly flirtin' With my best friend...

So i guess i'll say goodbye, I'll find me another guy

Why, (why, why, why) You always makin' me Cry, (cry, cry, cry), No I can't stand it, no you can't be my man, It don't matter who you are, Even if you were a star, You've got to go (Go, go, go... go, go, go)

Read my lips i'm leavin', and no no i ain't teasin', This time it's for real, Gotta find you another girl, Coz this one sure ain't stayin', By the time you finish what you're sayin'I'll be gone...

So i guess i'll say goodbye, I'll find me another guy

Why, (why, why, why) You always makin' me Cry, (cry, cry, cry), No I can't stand it, no you can't be my man, It don't matter who you are, Even if you were a star, You've got to go (Go, go, go... go, go, go)

#83

2011-01-08T22:19:00.004+08:00

This chicken pox thingy magijjy is definitely not fun!
Have to stay home all day and night.
Got nothing to do, all I can afford to do is sleep my days away.
Got no appetite to eat even though I'm like really really hungry.
Have to shower in my purple color Iodin water with my green soap, and then come out and apply the white Calamine lotion looking like a ghost, I could scare all the house mates away if I walk around in the house at night.
And I'll wake up to the itching on my body, and start scratching away.

This sucks :(
I wanna go back to work.
Somebody please take my chicken pox away from me.

Ok, maybe not. In case my weird-ass colleague who thinks he's a bomoh and can do all the wonders in the universe God Himself cannot even do, come and offer to take my sickness away again, and carry my sickness on himself instead.
OMG SO DAMN LAME CAN!

Cannot imagine I had been through his lame bullshits for the past 8 months -___-
No wonder all of us don't want to ride in the same car as him during work, or hang out with him anymore, or for the matter of fact, just talk to him.
Good God, I should start telling u guys all his bullshits he has come out with.
Maybe I will, coz I'm just too bored at home being sick.

Right now, I'm just gonna go make Milo or something coz my tummy is growling already.
Just hope that I won't scare the shit out of my house mates.

Steady hands just take the wheels.

#82

2011-01-07T21:12:00.005+08:00

I'm back from Penang/Ipoh.
I got back yesterday because the damn smart chicken pox decided to find me 2 days ago.
Was down with fever and sore throat at work in Penang then, Wednesday night, I started having some rashes thingy on my body.
And there I was, thinking my body was too heaty, hence the rashes.
Yesterday, I woke up with more rashes and Sabby and Dena saw, and said I might be having chicken pox.
So I went to the doctors, and yes, true enough, it was chicken pox.

The doctor was so hilarious.
She's like so enthusiastic that I'm having chicken pox, u should see the way she acted la.
So kan cheong and excited and all.
Must have been ages since she last saw a chicken pox patient ey?
And that doctor, was also the most expensive doctor I've seen ever, minus hospital visits and all of course.
I was charged RM150!!!
Luckily it is claimable coz I fell sick at work.
And there's a lot of medication for me to take, like eating smarties or m&m's, so colorful.
Even got soap and water thingy-majiggy to bath with.

Throughout yesterday, chicken pox appeared more and more on my face.
And at 6plus, I decided I cannot spend another night in Ipoh and work the whole day of today and get home like midnight later.
So I took one of the Mix FM car and drove back to KL alone after having dinner with the roadrunners.

Today, I woke up to the itchiness on my body.
Damn, it sucks la.
I'm too old to have this chicken pox shits.

Well there's pretty much nothing else to talk about.
Oh except on Sunday, I was out karaoke-ing with Shaun, Sime, Ann Zian, Winnie, Jack and 2 of Sime's friends.
And we sang until 4am in the morning, I came home and slept an hour then shot off to work, driving up to Penang.
And halfway through my shit-ass tired journey, I received a msg from someone revealing all the truth that I was suspecting about, even without needing confrontation.
Funny huh?

So yeah that's about it la.
The Penang and Ipoh trip was a disaster because of me being bothered with stuff and me feeling sick the whole time.

Imma go sleep away my chicken pox.
Hopefully, when I wake up, it will be all gone.
I know, I know, it's not possible.
Just give me the benefits of doubt once in awhile ok, after all, I'm a patient :P

#81

2011-01-02T19:14:00.008+08:00

Heyo!

I'm so lazy to pack my bags for tomorrow.

I'm going outstation for work, yes again!

Gonna be there for the whole weekday this time, spending 2 nights in Penang and then another 2 in Ipoh.

This time, I swear I'm gonna splurge on all the good food there!

After all, food is paid for, awesome right!

But the thing is, I'm so freaking lazy to pack.

I don't know where to start.

Is there any bags out there that has an auto-packing mechanism?

It would really come in handy like about now!

Right now at this moment, I really miss my buddy back in Kuching.

That naughty little thing, awwww!

I've been listening to this song so many times today.

I used to be so hooked up with this song, playing on repeat.

And I haven't heard it in a gazillion years, and my awesome iTunes decided to play it today, and I'm hooked back onto this song.

I think I'm gonna get sick of this song pretty soon.

Delta Goodrem

Not Me Not I

You mixed me up for someone Who'd fall apart without you Yeah you broke my heart for the first time But I'll get over that too It's hard to find the reasons Who can see the rhyme? I guess that we where seasons out of time I guess you didn't know me If you think love is blind That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I The story goes on without you And there's got to be another ending But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time But I'll get over them too As a new door opens we close the ones behind And if you search your soul I know you'll find You never really knew me If you think love is blind That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I All you said to me All you promised me All the mystery never did believe No I never cry no I never not me not I If you think love is blind That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not I, I won't cry No not me, not I, not I

Awesome song laa.

Okay time to start packing my bag!

#80

2011-01-01T22:03:00.005+08:00

I should have really thought of being a fortune teller.
I would have earn great bucks out of it.
Damn chun ok!

And HAHAHA! It's such a joke to find it out myself.
It was what I predicted from the very start of time.

And lookie lookie! What happen now?

I'm just gonna sit back and laugh laa.
Too damn funny to be true.

U just hafta prove everything I said right.
U just degraded yourself in my own eyes.
Such a hypocrite!

By far, the best joke I've heard in my whole entire 22 years of life.

#79

2011-01-01T19:01:00.009+08:00

How was your countdown to 2011? Must have been partying out and all right?
Initially, I was supposed to be working, for the Outdoor Broadcast at Pavilion for NOT Mix Fm.
But I got too lazy and I really just needed a break, and it's New Year's eve anyways.
So I missed out on a big event that I could actually learn so much from, but screw that.
My life doesn't revolve only around work, well not yet.

But I was really thinking, why is New Year such a biggie anyways? It only so much means we're a step closer to 2012.
How did celebration for the New Years came up anyways, and who brought it up? It's only New Years right?

So anyways, I was too lazy to go out partying, or counting down the final minutes of 2010, so I stayed home this year.
I don't see why I would want to get stuck in the jam, crowding with the whole nation, get your feets all stepped on, or your face elbowed in the midst of counting down, and have your clothes, hair, face, car etc. dirtied by party sprays.

Yes, I have to admit that before this, all I was looking forward to was to party and countdown and all.
But that was me being a sakai back then when I just stepped foot into KL.
So I stayed at home with the presence of good companion and some alcohol, who needs a party?
And plus, can watch fireworks clearly from my house, why the use of crowding with people right?
Bliss!

So looking back, 2010 hasn't been such a good year for me.
There's dramas and what-nots but things seem to be pretty smooth now.
2010 has definitely made me a stronger and more independent person that I am today after going through all the shit-ass dramas.
From the break up, to finding money to survive and finding a new home, to getting a job to secure my home and to distract me from grieving my lost, and to handle 2 batches of puppies and neighbors who aren't dog lovers, to having bitchy housemates who bring me a million and one problems everyday, to getting them out of the house and finding new housemates, to settling the car problems and the breakdowns, to finding time in between my job and my studies, to knowing an awesome bunch of people at work, to having someone who's always there for me and a shoulder to lean on etc. etc.
Life is definitely going better now I must say.

After many years of the relationship, 2010 is the first year I tried living on my own, finding my own ways through life, learning survival skills.
And there I was thinking the world was going to end.
Back then, it really seems like my world revolves around u. I was so attached, so in love. Seeping deep into what I really felt was my comfort zone that I was so attached to, not wanting to crawl out of the warm cocoon to evolve, to spread my wings.
I thought I could stay in there, forever.
But I was stupid to think so, too naive and somehow, I had to come out and face the world on my own.

And now, I'm really glad I've moved on.
I've gotten over the past.

And now, I'm ready to take on new challenges in life with someone new.

Life's going to be a challenge.
But I'm ready to take the world with u.

I'm ready to FLY!

#78

2010-12-31T22:08:00.001+08:00

So 2011 is approaching in like 4 and a half hour from now.
How would u sum your 2010?
I would say my 2010 sucks!
So all I'm waiting for is for 2010 is leave ASAP, and I'm looking forward for a good 2011.
So yeah, 2011 BETTER BE A GOOD YEAR!

Okay I'm gonna sum up my 2010 briefly with pictures.

Worked with BACI for a couple of months.

I joined the Mix Fm Roadrunners and got to know this amazing bunch of people.

Club with the Hitz cruisers for the first time

Went to Usher's Concert! FOR FREEEE!

Model for BACI

Attended Neyo's concert!

Saw the cutest Mini ever!

Met this amazing girlfriend who's always there for me :)

Partied with these Kuching peeps.

Attended Jason Derulo's showcase.

Celebrated my 21st twice and had the most expensive birthday in my life.

Had 2 batches of super adorable puppies!

Attended Puma Archive

And maybe missed out some other activities. And definitely missed out a lot of dramas in this post.
But what I really want to say is, GOODBYE 2010 AND WELCOME 2011!

Cheers guys! Happy New Year!

#77

2010-12-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

Heyooo!
My template is changed again.
Now all my chatbox, comment boxes and what not's are back up.
But I kinda liked the yellow template lah.
Just that it wasn't quite user friendly.
Le sigh

Err errrr errrrrrrrr, I've got nothing to blog about now.
Just that, I'm hungreehhh!
Okay time to go grab dinnahhh!
CHAOZ!

#76

2010-12-29T15:40:00.001+08:00

XBOX! Want to play Ultimate Alliance now, cannn?
Sigh, stupid assignment.
And why the urge to play only when I have something in line to be done?
Maybe just a reason for me to procrastinate again, as always.

Anyways, I'm hungreehhhh.
What's for lunch? ;|

#75

2010-12-29T14:21:00.003+08:00

Oh my! This template really sucks doesn't it?
I can't even view my older posts -__-
Gotta change it when I have the time.
I am supposed to be rushing on my assignment right now, but as usual, I'm being a slugabed.
I planned to wake up early to work on the assignment, but I laze in bed and continue sleeping after each time I woke up, making myself more tired and when I really decided to wake up, I took the BB and started downloading all the unnecessary apps.
So right now, I have a really cute pink theme where I can have more icon shortcuts on my main screen. YAYYYY!!

This week, the Roadrunners are in JB/Muar/Melaka to give out cash!!
Yes u heard me right! CASHHH!
But due to my assignment, I stayed back in KL and rot at home. NAHHH! I didn't rot at home, I have a very productive thing to do back in KL too, which u shall know later if it works out.
It has something to do with switching my job, and being a part of something else.
DAMN! I miss those crazy awesome Roadrunners!

Next week however, I will be going to Ipoh/Penang with the Roadrunners, and YES! SOME MORE CASH GIVEAWAY!
It is really simple, really!
All u gotta do is grab the CIMB Track&Win car stickers from us, paste it in your car, and be the first 5 to drive to us to show us the sticker when our crosses are being announced on-air.
As simple as that, u get to walk away with RM50 and double the amount if u are a CIMB account holder.
Simple isn't it?

So come and track us down for the cash if u are in Ipoh/Penang next week ok?
And don't worry awesome KL pple, we will be back in KL and giving out more cash for 2 weeks starting on 10th January 2011.

But I cannot be sure if I would still be around with the Roadrunners on the 10th January onwards coz I'm planning and working on something else.
Let's just wait and see how things go ok?

If u are really planning to track us down on the cash giveaways, just watch out for us.
Here are pictures of how we actually look like.

THE MIX FM CHEVROLET ROADRUNNERS ROCKKKK!!!

Or u can just buzz me if u need more info ;)

#74

2010-12-28T22:33:00.004+08:00

I haven't gone missing! Just that I didn't have anything to blog about. And kinda busy with all the outstation trips, and layaning the mommy for a week plus.

Oh and I just realised I havent posted up these pictures yet. Way long overdued. But better late than never right? Jason Derulo's showcase back in July!

#73

2010-12-12T21:45:00.002+08:00

Doesn't remember how to be a sensible person

And that's the truth.

Doesn't know when it is appropriate to be angry.
Or when it is appropriate to not be mad.

Doesn't know when it is appropriate to look past one's mistake.
Or when to take the mistake as a mistake.

All I'm sensible of doing now is, point out every single mistakes and make it an issue, and be mad about it all year long.

What I seriously need is probably a handbook for 'The Art of Rationality' or maybe 'How to Be A Human Again'

#72

2010-12-12T18:04:00.002+08:00

ADIOS AMIGOS!

Instead of doing day trips, we had a better idea to do a night-trip.
When I mean night-trip, I really mean NIGHT trip.
3 of us drove all the way up to Ipoh at 7.30pm to attend a beach party.
And then go makan around Ipoh, and then drove back at 2.30am.

How crazy was that?
By the time we got back, we were so god damn tired.
We could hardly drive ourselves back to KL even.
Damn I'm gonna miss all these fun.
I'm gonna miss all these people.

But when it's time to say goodbye, I guess there's nothing much we can do about it.

p/s Man, this blog template sucks. I can't put any widgets or page elements etc. so there won't be a chatbox (not like I need it anyways) and no comment box either (and again, not like I need it anyways)

I'm going outstation for work tomorrow.
Melaka and JB.
Hope it's worth the long drive!

#71

2010-12-08T01:34:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO!

Opps Christmas isn't here yet ey?
Anyways, how do u like my new layout?
Nice eyyy?

#70

2010-12-06T02:17:00.002+08:00

This blog just looks super ugly now doesn't it?
Something wrong somewhere with the templates and html codes.
Now it has little little annoying boxes lying here and there on the page.
Will fix it when I find the time.

And now, it's ranting time.
It's only the 6th but I'm super dooper broke.
Damn all these bills.
And I haven't even settle them in full amount.

Talk about shopping, u know what, scrap the idea of shopping.
Or a new hair-do.
Coz I'm too broke for these shit.
Just gonna look ugly in this fugly hair and old clothes for Chinese New Year -__-

Meanwhile, I'm aiming for a new job, hopefully more relaxed and carefree, with higher pay and lesser working hours.
But before I count the chickens before they hatched, let's just keep my fingers crossed on getting the job first.
After years of effort and determination put into learning it, I really hope it does benefit me at the end of the day.

Till then, I'm just gonna pray and keep my fingers crossed tightly.
And now, it's late and I got work tomorrow.
Work with no motivation and shitz because we are just plain unappreciated slave.
Only reason I'm still there is just for the pay and merchandises from the No Man's Land.

TOODLES!

#69

2010-12-04T16:53:00.002+08:00

Last night, my tire punctured for the 3rd time this year.
Have I told you that this year is seriously a fucked up bad year for me?
Oh wait, I think I did.
I was halfway driving back from work, picking up my partner in crime.
And when I was about to reach, my tire decided to go flat on me.
Thank God I was literally just around the corner.
And luckily I brought my cute little adorable white puppy Polo with me to work.
He gave me his companionship when I was alone waiting for help.

So Christmas is coming. I don't ask for much.
I just want 4 brand new tires for my Christmas present can?

It's funny how my Christmas wish list has changed drastically over the years.
Few years back, I would have asked for money, or luxuries, or all the other fancy stuffs that I have always asked for.
And this year, I'm asking for 4 brand new tires.
But of course, I wouldn't mind all the money, luxuries or all the other fancy stuffs.
I would still want my wish list in #61 before I die.

Anyways, I'm ending this post with a lazy picture.

Me falling asleep with the cute little skunk!

#68

2010-12-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

HOWDIIEEEE!

Whole of last week till this week, WOW! I'm packed with work all over again.
It has been quite awhile since I worked full blast like this again.
Worked the whole of last week, and had to travel down to JB for the Radio Fest 2010, and I had to switch station for the weekend. I became the Hitz cruiser for that weekend. Long drive up with the rest of the other stations, Era, Sinar, THR Raaga but only Hitz cruisers got to stay for the night. And a couple of announcers. The other cruisers all left back to KL after the event.

Damn the event was so boring! It was like my first malay concert I've ever been to in the entire 21 years of my life.
Weather was scorching hot then it decided to rain super heavily just about the event was about to start.
The concert was entertained by Stacy, who is apparently a very very hot sensation and a super huge celebrity after winning Akademi Fantasia but as usual, I didn't know who she was.
Then there were Wakaka Crew whom I thought were a band but apparently turned out to be a dance crew, but they were awesome! It felt like I was watching Step Up live on stage!
Then there were Bunkface who were really good too, and everyone was like crazy over them too, that about 10 guards have to escort them to their car after the event.
There were Dina from Era and the announcers from different stations, Hitz, Era, Fly, Cats, Hot, THR, etc. hyping up the event.

But us cruisers, seriously didn't need to be there at all.
We had totally nothing to do except for driving the car up.
Oh and not forgetting leeching on free food! MUAHAHAHAHA!
Thank god there were SUPER AWESOME International Buffet dinner at the hotel for us after the event, or I would have cursed for being there.
OMG! I'm craving for that international buffet dinner laa!
It is seriously damn good ok!
There were oysters which were really really fresh, crabs, prawns, lamb, mutton, salmon, etc. etc. etc., u name it, they've got it.
I couldn't stop eating that I forgot to snap pictures of anything at all.
Jin and Aryton was like, "WOW! This girl can eat!"

After dinner, we got directed to a non-existence 7-Eleven by the hotel receptionist.
Jin, Aryton and I were looking for 7-E to get booze for the night, but there were no 7-E where we were directed to.
Thank god there are chinese coffee shops.
And the whole night, I had to hear Jin complaining and mocking me bout not bringing my passport that they couldn't go party in Singapore coz of me.
Super dooper sad face!
Nobody told me anything bout the Singapore thingy.
I SO WANNA GO TO SINGAPORE!
But we couldn't coz I wasn't told bout the plan.
So there we were, drinking sadly in the room with our super good companion - TIGER!

When is Tiger never a good companion, I must ask!
NEVEERRRR!

Speaking bout which, I'm feeling kinda thirsty now.
Damn!
Too bad I gotta work tomorrow.
And also kinda broke for the month, so yeah.
That's the sad case of my life :(

#67

2010-11-23T14:55:00.001+08:00

Says "Imma eat all u fat puppies tonight!"

#66

2010-11-23T14:44:00.003+08:00

Eastin Hotel Ee Chinese Restaurant Review

Last week, 2 of my colleagues and I went to Eastin Hotel's Ee Chinese Restaurant. We were invited for a food review, so YAY! Free food!

But truthfully, it didn't turn out great. It kinda let me down coz I really expected hotel quality taste. It was kind of a disappointment.

Alright this is a review, so I'll be telling the truth. Food presentation was really nice. Service was superb. We were really treated like the royal family in those dynasty movies and all. Which makes us feel really awkward.

Coming to the food, it wasn't up to a hotel standard quality. Only presentation of the food was at the hotel standard. Taste was otherwise....

Dish 1: Twins Combination (Grilled Prawns and Baked Oysters).

I actually almost forgot to snap a picture. The shrimp was actually pierced into the lemongrass thingy. Okay wait, is that even lemongrass?
The shrimp was really good. It was really fresh and springy and huge. The sauce was superb! I really love this dish until I tasted the oyster.
The oyster was baked with cheese and mayo. The oyster wasn't really fresh, hence it stinks!

Dish 2: Double boiled assorted seafood soup served in coconut

There were a lot of mushrooms, and I really mean A LOT! It was like mushroom was going at 90% discount. There were also scallops and sea cucumber.

I didn't quite like the taste of the soup. The coconut kinda spoil the taste of the soup, and there were too much mushroom, hence all I tasted was mushroom smell in the soup.

None of us enjoyed this dish. We had a few mouthful and we stopped eating completely.

Dish 3: Steamed Sliced Village Chicken with Ham

Sorry there are no pictures for this dish because I forgot to snap one. OPPSSS!

But this dish was a disappointment too. The steam chicken weren't as smooth and soft like Hainanese Chicken Rice kinda chicken. It was rather tasteless and bland. Luckily there were pieces of ham in between the pieces of chicken to enhance the taste a little.

The chicken was covered with sauce which was really oily and tasteless. All I can taste was oil in the sauce.

Another disappointing dish.

Dish 4: Braised homemade bean curd with seasonal vegetable

This was a vegetarian dish.

The money bag on top of the bean curd was nice. Inside were lots of vegetables chopped up, and it was really crunchy.

As for the bean curd, the top layer of the bean curd was steamed with spinach. I didn't quite like the bean curd but my colleagues love them. I gave my share to them in the end.

Broccoli, what is there to comment? If u can go wrong with broccoli, I think u shouldn't be a chef in a hotel restaurant right? LOL

The dish was covered with oyster sauce, really nyummy sauce.

This dish was satisfactory.

Dish 5: Mini Lotus Leaf Rice

Glutinous rice steamed with chicken and mushroom. The rice was really tasteless.

All I ate from this dish was the chicken and mushroom. Had to dig in and take out the pieces of chickens and mushrooms.

Honestly, lo mai kai sold in the coffee shops outside tasted so much better.

This was a major disappointment.

Dish 6: Mango and Avocado Puree

This was the dessert for the night. I like the presentation of this dish.

The avocado puree on the right was really delicious. However, the mango puree tasted a bit too sour. I prefer the avocado coz it was just nice, not too sweet. I really think this dish would be awesome if the mango wasn't that sour.

So that was all the dishes we were served with that night. Overall, the dinner was quite a disappointment. I was expecting better food, at least a hotel standard tasting food. Only 3 dishes out of 6 got a good review from me.

Eastin's Ee Chinese Restaurant should really change around with their recipes. I give them a rating of 4/10 for the dishes.

For presentation I'll give them 7/10.

Service I'll rate them at 9/10 coz we were really served like emperors of the dynasty. LOL.

There u go, review on Eastin Hotel's Ee Chinese Restaurant.

#65

2010-11-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

Last night, I went for a food review at Eastin Hotel with my 2 dearest colleagues that I'm gonna miss sooooo much in a month or 2 time. Daayyymnnnn! I wish the team doesn't have to be shut down so that we could still work everyday like that and have crazy fun times everyday.

I'll be posting up pictures on the food review soon.

My future work plan might involve me moving into a new station, probably Hitz. That is if all my other plans fail. Shall see and update u all when I know about the plans.

Alright that's all for now.
ADIOS AMIGOS!

#64

2010-11-19T01:20:00.003+08:00

Monday night, I came home to a house of 6 dogs.
If you must have guessed it, yes I have 4 new born puppies, AGAIN!
My stupid dog is just that horny.
Or maybe too seductive to attract some stupid random stray dogs into tearing off my fences and staying in for the night like I'm offering some hotel service.

So yes, if you know of anyone who wants puppies, or if u wanted them yourself, come over here and get them off my shoulder alright.
OMG! I hate what I'll be going through in the next couple of weeks/months.
I have the shittiest, most ridiculously insanely intolerable and brainless neighbours anyone could ever have in the whole entire galaxy.

And poor doggy has to sit at her one small corner of the big carporch because of the stupid fatty who bit her on the ears the other night.

OH THE HORROR OF HAVING SO MANY DOGS AND RIDICULOUSLY INTOLERABLE NEIGHBOURS WHO AREN'T DOG LOVERS, WHO LEAVE THEIR STUPID CATS RUNNING AROUND THE NEIGHBOURHOOD OR MY ROOF FOR INSTANCE, BUT MY DOGS AND PUPPIES CAN'T EVEN SIT OUTSIDE MY GATE...

I really wish I could keep all those cute adorable little thing, but having these kinda neighbours just make my life sucks BIG TIME!

Damn life is unfair!

#63

2010-11-14T03:12:00.001+08:00

Unappreciated slavery.

Is what I have been giving for the last 6 months.
Is what I will getting in return in the next 2 months.
And only for the next 2 months, and after that, unappreciated slaves will be expelled just like that.

What is not rational is how the f*cker talks to us.
Firstly, u never apologized or give us any heads up on what's going to happen to the team.
Then, u pretend u don't know what's going on by shining the halo on your head.
And now u trynna talk to us like slaves.
Well, SUCK THAT!
Just remember that, what goes around comes around.

New mission: Be an appreciated slave. or better still, be a self-employed, self-appreciated slave.

#62

2010-11-14T02:35:00.003+08:00

Backaches checked.
Joints pains checked.
Fever checked.
Other random pains and discomforts checked.

Body is totally screwed up to the max.
Ever since I got back to paradise.
And now I'm back in this well errr, lemme put it in a nice way, "heaven".

And look, I'm supposed to be sleeping and resting the fever and pains away.
But biological clock somehow seems unwind.
Body is taking a 360 degrees anti-clockwise detour.

Please unwind 360degrees clockwise back.
Help anyone?
Yeah, I guess not.

#61

2010-10-24T21:02:00.003+08:00

This would be my Must Have Things Before I Die post.
*warning: overloaded pictures ahead*

1. Lomo cameras

Love the Paul Smith lomo

2. Classic vintage piano

Though I wouldn't mind this futuristic baby grand.

3. Classic turntable/ gramophone

This actually looks awesome! Ipod gramophone. Where can I get this?!?!!

4. Volkswagen Kombi

Maybe lower it like that

Or paint it like this

5. Classic Vespa

Prolly do it like this so I can have a Kombi on a Vespa! How smart can i get huh? *winks*

6. Old Mini

And park my Kombi and Mini together like that. *wooottttssss!

7. What bout and old Mustang?

8. Oh, Classic JAGUAR!!!

Oh this looks AWESOME!

I think Imma go grow my money tree now! So much to collect! Totally lovin all the old school vintage stuff! Maybe I shall open a musuem after that huh? :)

#60

2010-10-24T15:42:00.005+08:00

Oh look! It's another lazy sunday. Ahhh life is such a bliss. Well, only on my weekends that is -_-

Anyways, life has been awesome these past few weeks, or months. Except for d past 2 weeks where exams n work are overloading my mini brain and my mini capability to juggle both, and oh wait, how can i miss out fun and leisure too!

Don't ask me how exams went because i think i kinda screwed my grades n lost motivation on my studies since early this year after being hit with all the unnecessarily ridiculous dramas in life. I'm more motivated to work because work is awesomeeeeee!

At the moment, i'm trynna save up money for a vacation,

a piano

and my boutique,

which none seem to be happening anytime soon because i just realised how hard it is to save -_-

I think imma start a new foundation - Contribution to the poor (Jilly). So who wanna be the first d contributor and be named mr/lady AWESOOMMMMEEE???

#59

2010-10-12T11:23:00.004+08:00

A post a day for 365 days project definitely failed to the max!

#58

2010-09-08T00:11:00.003+08:00

Damn!
I see the deep shit financial crisis is hitting us again.
Oh wait, maybe just me.
And yeah, I sense it hitting hard pretty soon.

First, there's the extra rent that I gotta cover coz there's gonna be a housemate lesser in the house.
And then there's car insurance and road tax burden.
And bills like always.
And right, pay is absolutely farking low that it isn't even sufficient to cover half of the incoming debts!

Who ever said life is gonna be difficult?
Oh wait, all those just did the justice of explanation.
FML!

#57

2010-09-04T02:10:00.002+08:00

I so failed project a post a day for 365 days. Damn!

#56

2010-08-23T13:10:00.003+08:00

No more stalking human on Facebook, Jilly.
And no more trying to land 196 planes on Airline USA on your freaking Itouch.
Human stalking and Itouch air traffic controller ain't your job, YO!
Your job is to study and ace in your freaking exams and complete your mofo assignments, which are due like in a week time.

Common Jilly, U CAN DO THIS!

p/s I need money to pay my waist-wrapped debts(hutang di keliling pinggang)

#55

2010-08-22T13:08:00.001+08:00

Ughhh! Why did I even bother?
*slaps self*

#54

2010-08-21T13:04:00.002+08:00

Life has never felt this good.
Lying in bed all day and night.
Waking up to something I love everyday.
And it shall remain as good, if not better :)

#53

2010-08-20T13:01:00.005+08:00

Dear Jilly,

Start STUDYING will u!
OMG WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEMO?
Wanna waste another 1.5k? I'm ain't some money printing machine YO!
So START LIKE NOOOWWW!

#52

2010-08-19T12:58:00.002+08:00

OMG! Mid-terms coming, and finals too. And mommy coming too!
I'm so gonna die.
Gotta start studying JILLY, START LIKE RIGHT NOW!

#51

2010-08-18T16:38:00.001+08:00

Post #3 of Project A Post A Day for 365 Days

Continuation of the hang outs with the crazy bunch of people.
These are pictures of the sober-up sesh after Zouk that I forgot to post up yesterday.

My retard baby with his fav garlic cheese naan

The almost drunk super cool Shermsie

Told u he was almost drunk.

Pictures from the next day at Sunway Pyramid after a late lunch.

Tattoo time

1st punishment for dropping the stress ball they've been throwing among themselves as entertainment goes to Shermsie

Sime's turn

Then it's Stevieee

And of course Jack

Then they decided to play football with the stress ball afterward

And they decided to change the punishment from push ups to squats

Piggy back

The girls

Bowling time. Sime's bowler name

Ann Zian's

And obviously Steve's

LOL! Crazy day out definitely.
Tomorrow's post will be about Jason Derulo Live in KL!
Stay tuned!

#50

2010-08-17T16:18:00.006+08:00

Post #2 of Project A Post A Day for 365 Days

Steve baby and Sherms was here last month and I met up with them a couple of times to party, and whatnot's .
We headed to Zouk on a Saturday night of Sherm's arrival for some drinking and party sesh.
It was so freaking packed that we had to resolve to Barsonic.
The guys couldn't quite take the music. LOL.
But after the alcohol intake, all was GOOD!

CHEERS BABEH!

Group photo of us all:-
Clockwise from top: Ann Zian, Sherms, Simon, Gilbert, Steve, me and Winnie

Look who we met there too, Carey

And also the old man and Yee

Now looking back at these photos, I definitely miss them.
Everyone's back in their own comfort zone now.
See ya guys next hols alright?
:)

That's all for post #2

#49

2010-08-16T15:31:00.007+08:00

My my my!
I've yet, once again abandoned this blog.
Been busy at work, working like a mad cow.
Well, maybe not. Work is pretty carefree.
Just that work takes up pretty much most of my time.
And the rest of my free time, I'll be treating myself with lots of sleep and not forgetting spending time with the little precious at home.

I think I should start a regime (haha! good choice of word) of a post a day for 365 days.
Watchu think?
I should try starting today.
So today is post #1 in my A Post A Day for 365 Days Project.
And it will be about a long overdue post on Usher Live in KL!

This was on 7 July 2010.
I had free tix thanks to my new partner in crime.
Overall, the concert wasn't that of a blast.
Sound system sucks.
And Usher wasn't quite of an entertainer.
Pretty boring, if his songs weren't good, and if he didn't had good dance moves.
Lucky thing is the tix was FOC!
If it wasn't, I think I'll be stabbing myself in the heart till today.

Anyways, pictures will do the talking as usual alright!

Usher on the projector screen. Picture is a tad bit too dark. Sorry.

Mini Usher on stage.

Striking his dance moves!

A zoomed in picture of Usher.

Guys, meet Shaun, my companion for the night

And that's about all the pictures from Usher Live in KL 2010.
Had more videos than pictures.
Maybe I should post them up ey?
I'll think about it.
LOL.

Till then, wait for my post #2 coming up tomorrow :)
Chaoz!

#48

2010-07-12T01:11:00.005+08:00

My blogshop is back up again!
No it's not Mannequin Beauty anymore this time.
Reinvented and better.
It is now CHIC VOGUE COUTURE!
Check it out!

http://chicvoguecouture.blogspot.com/

Link me up too if u must.
And tell me what u think bout it :)

:D